“Two Sides of the Same Coin” by Michelle, age 17
today you think about fear
& fear it
but you do not die
today your bisexual self has a boyfriend and no one says its just a phase
or has a girlfriend and no one says you’re a closeted lesbian
& where are the bells?
where is the city on fire for you?
where is the chorus of “not really gay”,
today
your bisexual self is not a unicorn
& you pour one out with each step
& your streets becomes ancestor too
drunk on the living, which is you
today
you inspire
today
your bisexual self conjures spirit
like rumblings in concrete
& yes
you did that
for to love is love
is to feed
& you have been over/flowing
of course you have
you care & you love
& you love & you love
so much your identity be water & bridge
so much your labels be cargo
let it be known
the first brick thrown at the bath-house raids
was meant to strike
let it be known you are your own quiet revolution
you can love her
when you they aren’t watching
yesterday
your bisexual ache swelled
but today
you are here
& what is resilience if not vengeance
a heavy stream of salt
poured down the throat
of all that should oppose your daily bloom
those who deserve it
who never deserved you
for this you feel
lighter
& for this,
endless vibrations
for this,
gardens wherever you roam
& this block be yours
& this world, now
yours
& this,
too,
is a form of resurrection
today
you are you first, bisexual second
& you are not afraid
& what mistake
what divine miracle